Beri Kongsi

Hati gundah gulana
Akal tiada ilhamnya
Lidah enggan berbicara
Pasal benar ibarat dusta

Bibir terkatup rapat
Gigi terkacip ketat
Kejang segala urat
Mata terpaku putih
Sungguh hakikat jerih

Zulmat umpama kiamat
Meski zarah terasa berat
Hatta jari usah bertelunjuk
Paras diri patut tunduk

Segala sesuatu nescaya adalah natijah tindakan diri sendiri. Pilihan yang dibuat, jalan yang diambil, saki-baki yang ditolak tepi. Dari mana puncanya? Ke mana hala tujunya? Dengar suara hati, berundinglah dengan kewarasan, berikhtiar bersama keikhlasan. Yakin dengan tindakan, InsyaAllah tidak akan goyah walau dipersoalkan.. Sendiri lebih tahu..Wallahualam...

(Asalnya diwarkahkan sebagai azimat penguat diri sendiri. Kini dikongsi.. ^_^ )

Marshmallows Taught Me...

Never in my life, not even once, I imagine Me finishing an English novel. But on August 20, 2008 I have finally fed myself, munched and swallowed my last 'Marshmallows for Breakfast.' It was the best last spoon that I had. I was relieved as I finished the very last sentence. Yet, I felt different. I still do and I will always do. And for that, I am thankful.

One brilliant piece, one month of time and I have learned so much. As I am typing this, from the bottom of my heart, I keep on reminding myself that 'this end is only a beginning.' If I wished to gain more, I have to make it a habit. I must. In case anyone is yet to get it, 'it' is reading.

I have no idea how Dorothy Koomson looks like. It'd crossed my mind to just surf the Internet and search for her image. But then I thought it would spoil the whole thing. She is THE STRANGER that heals a heart. So let it be. It just doesn't matter. I love what I read, what she writes. That matters, a lot..

The message is simple and easy. It's everyday life, though it might not be ours. It is how we adopt the message, how we understand it. Different minds, different views.

I understand now that in many parts of life, I have to give up. I should consider pausing and leaving behind things that are not meant for me. No doubt I must fight for what I desire but at certain points, I must stop. I must face and accept the fact 'It doesn't belong to me. Move on.' But do turn back, to always remind myself not to repeat the same mistakes again.

Let things come naturally. Take it with open arms, heart and mind only if it is what I want. Let it pass through if it is the other way round. Do not let it in just because I want to give it a chance for I will definitely regret. And whenever I think I'm living hell of a life, I've got to remember those in worst conditions ever. Perhaps mine isn't that bad.

As I turned from pages to chapters, Kendra whispered another important message. Never ever dream and hope. Instead, face today as if it's the only one I have. Make it my best. Draw something, anything that I like and fill it with my colours. Be it whatever the rests wish to comment. If again a person is to get hurt, it is no one but me. Cubaikhlas is rather hurt than hurting.

I already put a FULL STOP for an item, a COMMA for another. Are you now considering the same? Wallahualam..

(p/s: hugs for the owner of the material.. 'the cupid effect' is next..)

Kisah Benar, Bukan Temberang..

Sudah aku bayangkan. Telah aku jangkakan. Memang libur ini bosan yang amat. Sejak pulang tempoh hari, belum ada kesempatan untuk aku menjejak kaki ke bandar Kuantan. Apatah lagi nak menghirup angin pantai di Teluk Chempedak. Hanya kejadian-kejadian yang bukan luar biasa, tidak aneh, jauh sekali pelik yang mengisi masaku.
Pendek kata, rutin.. Kan senang kalau aku cakap awal-awal?.. Maafin ya..*kenyit mata* bukan sakit mata taw!!

Tapi,dalam hanya dua hari ini jugalah aku peroleh TIGA NIKMAT.. Alhamdulillah, kupanjatkan kesyukuran yang tidak terhingga kepada Ya Rabbi... Ini adalah kisah benar... Bukan temberang, okey? =P

17 Ogos 2008
Ada kenduri kahwin dekat kawasan rumah. Mama bapak sibuk menolong sejak beberapa hari lepas. Aktiviti blok. Petang lepas majlis, nah!! Banyak lauk dibawa balik. Macam-macam masakan. Daging opor, daging kicap, ayam kurma', acar buah, nasi minyak.. Tapi nikmat yang sebenar adalah DAUN KAYU MASAK TEMPOYAK!!!!! Dipadan dengan ikan masin. Aduhai.. Terbaik di muka bumi ni.. Lagi hebat kalau ada pekasam..(p/s: MasyaAllah. Perutku berghazal sekarang)..
Kejap. Kalian tahu tak lauk tu macam mana? Begini. Ada pucuk ubi, daun serai kayu, daun kunyit, kacang botol, petai, terung pipit, lada hijau, cabai burung dan serai. Sudah pastilah bahan utamanya tempoyak.Dah macam rancangan memasak la pulak.. Cukup la ek.. Sudah meleleh liur kalian membaca keenakannya..=P

18 Ogos 2008
Celik saja mata pagi tadi, terasa rama-rama dan kupu-kupu menari samba dalam perut. Mana tidaknya, keputusan peperiksaan keluar hari ini. Tak senang duduk la dibuatnya. Jam 11 pagi da berkampung depan PC. Akhirnya, dapat aje 'signal' dari JoAra, terus masuk 'website' ACCA. Alhamdulillah. Nikmat kedua telah sampai. Aku LULUS semua kertas.. Syukur sekali.

Jam 8 malam. Mengumumkan ketibaan nikmat yang ketiga. Buah SUKUN GORENG dan KOPI O PANAS.. Memang la selera kampung saya ni.. Sumpah sedap ok.. Dicecah pulak dengan KICAP BERLADA. Memang 'kick'..!!! Siapa lambat dapat piring kosong ajelah.. =P Kalaulah yang dalam kuali panas tu boleh diambil, dah berebut dah.. Hahaha..

Jadi, inilah cereka pendek percutianku yang baru bermula. Setulus ikhlas hati kuungkapkan, berharap benar agar ia menjadi lebih baik dan indah.. InsyaAllah.. Oh, pastilah begitu jua buat teman-teman semua.. Kita ketemu saat sesi pendaftaran nanti ya.. Rindu semuanya..

Sehingga itu.. Jaga diri...^_^
Wallahualam..

Untuk Kedua Kalinya (Bukan Sengaja)

Sore itu menemukan
Tidak dirancang satu kebetulan

Berbaju putih bercelana biru
Bertopi coklat sudah menunggu
Mulut terkunci tubuh membatu
Mati kutu haru-biru

Duduk semeja berkongsi cerita
Berselang ketawa terselit jenaka
Senyumnya penuh giginya rata
Selalu dipandang nescaya leka

Bukan sengaja tapi tak perasan
Bukan menolak untuk bersalaman

Untuk yang kedua kali
Aku "lampi"..

Baca ini : Telah dirujuk di kamus. Nyata, perkataan "lampi" tidak ditemukan.. But I guess we all know what it means kan? Lambat pick-up.. =P

Rapuh

Mudahnya retak
Begitu senang pecah
Berderai hancur
Tertusuk..

Indahnya gementar
Naifnya wajah galak memburu
Terketar-ketar, berdebar-debar
Tatkala bersua temu.

Jemu terpaku natijahnya berteleku
Musnah tawa jadi sendu

Sampai bila..

Tidak semua yang bisa merasa agungnya cinta, mulianya kasih, istimewanya perhubungan. Sebilangan cuma jatuh cinta, mendamba kasih, membelai rindu. Gagal mengungkap, tewas sebelum ke medan perang, gugur tanpa berjuang. Apa yang dikejar? Kepada siapa menadah rasa? Tak usah merayu, khuatir yang kaukucup itu belas, bukan anugerah dari Yang Satu.. Wallahualam..

Buat semua: Harus kuat bersabar. Pasti suatu yang indah telah Dia aturkan. Moga akan tiba..^_^

Rentetan Jangka

Menghitung waktu
Mengira ketika
Mencongak detik
Menghisab masa

Melintas umur
Meniti usia
Menyeberang hayat
Takkan ada jalan potong
Takkan bisa menoleh

Al-Yaum akarnya
As-Shahru batangnya
As-Sanah daunnya
Jadi pokok dekad
Lebat membuah abad

Sudah betapa banyak ruang dianugerahi Yang Maha Pemberi Nikmat kerna kasih dan sayangNya?.. Lantas gimana telah kita isi dan penuhi?.. Astaghfirullah.. Wallahualam...

FIVE

Zero heartbeat
No pulse
Breathe please.

The darkness
Eyes wide open
In search of light
See.

Speech of silence
For words kill
Thought is what it takes
Then u may speak.

Quiet..
Listen even for just a moment
For someone's day might be brightened.

Close enough
Deep connection
Hold, touch.

@-10-tion:Tlg jgn gelak bila baca.. My 1st "sajak" English.. Jap.. Sajak ke?.. *wink*

Acu Fikir

Pandang kanan tengok kiri
Jeling kanan lagi.

Tunduk dongak
'Clear', Bismillah, bergerak.

Bersiar-siar
Moga-moga ketemu teman
Berputar-putar
Jangan sampai nampak lawan.

Biarlah yang indah-indah
Sebab tak nak marah-marah
Jangan lelah nanti berkeringat
Terlalu jauh nanti tak ingat.

Nak catat tiada kertas
Tiada tinta tak bisa menulis
Kerna kisah tiada batas
Tinggal nanti sisa dikuis.

Mari bidadari
Dajal pergi.

Gelap mengangkat sauh
Terang sedia berlayar
Perjalanan masih jauh
Bangkit sedar.

Pulang..
Da lama kau pergi...

Selamat sampai
Lafaz salam
Masuklah kau dialu-alukan.

Sekadar berpujangga.. Apa kalimah pertama yang diucap sekembalinya Roh kepada Jasad? Seandainya ia pulang kepada pemiliknya yang abadi, bagaimana? Patah balik.. Apa fi'il, ayat dan lintasan hati kita semalam? Punya kekesalankah? Masih berurusan yang belum selesai? Hanya ingatan bersama bersaudara.. Kita adalah utusan.. Wallahualam...

Cuka Lara

Retak terbelah
Terhunus berdarah
Tersungkur rebah
Terkacip lidah.

Bilah tajam
Si Hawa kejam
Jamah ruji haram
Kulit hitam hati legam.

At-Taarikh kuli
Al-Aan ketuai
Kalau dulu putus tali
Kali ini pasti mati.

Pendusta selamba
Dayus membuta deria
Kekhalifahannya merana.

Pernahkah tangan menadah?
Pernahkah sujud berserah?
Jangan sekadar mengaku menyembah
Jahilnya Nauzubillah.

Persetan pangkatnya
Jahanam uban memutih di kepalanya
Sudahlah cetek akalnya
Degil melawan kata
Suka alpa lupa nestapa
Kalbu sekeras bata.

Wahai Si Takbur menongkat langit
Di luar mewah, di dalam perit
Cari dan ketuk pintu At-Taubah
Sebelum jasad bergelar jenazah.

Semoga Allah Taala membuka pintu hati setiap hambaNya (termasuklah diriku yang amat lemah ini) agar berada di jalan yang lurus dan benar. Amin..

Minta Perhatian!!

Di sini disenaraikan beberapa kejadian yg mungkin kalian mahu elakkan ketika sedang lepak bersama teman-teman. *grin*

1. Bila makan, pastikan anda tidak menghentak pinggan di meja secara tiba2 atau dgn tidak sengaja. Apatah lagi menggerakkan meja.. (x perlu tnjk kuat..=P)
2. Suap makanan ke dalam mulut. Jgn smpai ke muka.. (malu betul..*wink*)
3. Peka tapi 'cool'. Jgn berangan atau terlalu banyak berfikir. Takut nti ketinggalan. (bygkan anda diajukan soalan, tp x tahu nk jwb sbb x dgr.. merah pula pipi.. ngee)
4. Cakap terima kasih bila ada yg belanja. Biar siapa pun yg tolong bayarkan. Ehem2. Dgn kawan baik sendiri pun MESTI tau!!! (budi bahasa kan budaya kita ^_^)

Cara diwar-warkan macam banyak.. Walhal 3+1 je..Mengikut beberapa pengalaman pada banyak ketika, yang mana tidak lama dahulu.. Haihh.. Terbongkar sudahlah misteri kenapa BM masa SPM dapat B4 je.. Kesalahan bahasa yang tidak berjaya dibetulkan, lagi gagal dibendung.. =P

*berkongsi sekadar untuk suka-suka..* muahahaha...

AMANDA The Series

EPISODE 1

She swore she'd never do it again. But just a minute ago, she did. Oh, please. Don't blame her. If only anyone knew just how hard she tried not to repeat the same stupid mistake again. Still, she lost her battle. Yes, no doubt, she's weak. Indeed, very weak.

She stared at her read eyes. Tears were still down her cheeks. She could hardly breathe. Her throat was on fire. Her tummy was obviously in great pain. She was sweating as if she had just finished a marathon. " Why did I do this?" She wondered as she kept on crying silently. How she wished she could tell it to someone. "No way I'll ever do that. I created this so I got to end it myself."

She washed her face, her hands and wiped them. She took a long deep breath and put a fake smile on her reddish face. No one should witness this. She stepped out the devil's house and walked slowly to her room. All Amanda could think of now is her bed. Her legs were shaking she nearly missed her steps. Sleep. She needed that. She must rest. A cup of plain water and before anyone could even spell a word, Amanda was already sailing.

"She's not OK. Something is up. I've got to find out." Faith, Amanda's closest friend was concerned. She's determined but then came the big question. How? " I don't know but I must and I will find a way. I promise."

to be continued.....

DIA SENDIRI

Sedang dia melewati hari
Sedang dia membilang detik
Dia terpukul
Jasad dan nyawa berpimpin tangan
Sungguh akal telah tercicir.

Marah, kecewa, gentar, lemah
Bahang mengairi benak hatinya
Wajahnya kosong tidak mungkin dibaca
Sendirian dia meronta
Andai rebah tewas
Andai gagah Alhamdulillah.

Tidak keruan
Dia arif dia terganggu
Dia mencari kesayangannya
Dia mengingati kasihnya
Dia kepingin azimat darinya
Aneh dia tidak menyuarakannya

Sketsa apakah ini
Berapa episodnya sinetron ini
Dia 'peminat setia' yang hanyut
Dahagakan akhir yang sempurna
Meski nyata tidak memihaknya.

"Khusus buat Dia, berpijaklah di bumi asli. Tiada yang akan lari jika tidak dikejar. Setiap lara bahagia, berpeta di telapak usaha sendiri. Kaulah punca, sebab dan alasannya. Telunjuk ke wajahmu. Menuding bukan penyelesaiannya."

What A Feast!

As soon as our F6 class ended yesterday, we rushed back to our room, changed and headed for Sunway Pyramid. I was in my white short-sleeve blouse and black jeans. Carrying my green Thai bag, I looked just simple and 'santai'.

We girls were out for 'Forgetting Sarah Marshall." Before show, we decided to have lunch at Subway. There I was, standing in front of the counter, looking up at the menu. "What shall I have?" I thought. Finally when I was up to order, I chose 'Spicy Italian.' Half a foot long, unfortunately I can't recall what's the 'isi utama' in it (forgive me, it's my 1st S.I) and lots of salads, pickles-my favourite, onions, BBQ sause, Thousand Island, chilli and pepper of course. Yummy!! History was made. Before I knew, I've already finished it. And that is so not me. Haha!!!

Later, we had big laughs throughout the movie. It was really funny. When it ended, we did a little window shopping before we went home. I was determined that Subway was my only meal. Well, guess what? I had a tosai rawa in the evening and some keropok for supper. I am so proud of my stomach. I'm pretty sure my girlfriends are too.. Lalalala =P

note: As I'm writing this, I already had McDonald's for breakfast and keropok again. And, I'm imagining myself eating a kebab later. Unbelievable me!! What an APPETITE.. Alhamdulillah.. jengjengjeng.. Jarang-jarang terjadi kejadian sebegini.. hehehe..

Mana Boleh Cakap Kuat-Kuat

Never in my entire life I imagine myself sitting in front of a PC to write. True. I've always loved English, as in speaking, definitely not reading. So, 1st SOLID conclusion made. I don't write.

And PCs? My mum talked about modem for Internet connection at home and I have 0% knowledge about it. 2nd FIRM conclusion made, I am NO technology.

But here I am now, working on my fifth piece. I believe it's nothing much ( I mean I'm not good at all. Because basically what I do is 'merepek' i think) but somehow I enjoyed doing it. It's like I've found a spot where I can be who I am and spell it all out. Or at least half of it.

One moment. Let me ask. What do you think? Do you like what you read? I'm happy if you do. But if you don't, I can't make you do. After all, Kukukakikumalu is mine. Huhu.. ^_-

p/s:Shh..!! Jgn bagitau sape2 about my blog taw.. It's our one little secret.. Biar pecah di perut, jgn pecah di mulut.. I trust u, reader.. TQVM..

The Kereta Day

Having a license and not driving is a joke. Oh well, I admit I'm a JOKE. What? You're not buying that? Trust me! this is nothing but the truth. But last Thursday, I've learnt that driving is not just about moving your ride around but also the responsibilities that you hold together with your car key. It was all a brand new fun and excitement for me.. (thanks a bunch, Jo ^_^)

First lesson. Car wash and polish that cost only RM7. Where? Posh Car Care, Section 7. Time duration was 1 hour since there were a few cars before us. In return, tosai rawa and tosai bawang for breakfast while waiting. What more when we met this nice view that comes with a nice attitude package as well. Haha!! He, whose car was obviously washed and polished too offered me a seat and passed us newspapers to read. What a gentleman!! *grinning* But our sweet smiling faces turned sour as we left because the sky was suddenly dark. Was it going to rain? You can try guess.

Next pit-stop was the Perodua Service Centre. The cute blue Kelisa checked in around 12.30 and later out around 3. I don't really understand but I know it was necessary. (Bapak has a lot to tell me about cars and engines this mid break..) Hehe.. It was a long wait but it was then that we got to meet another very interesting yet funny man. All the while I was entertained watching this Chinese uncle playing a bombing game on his phone. Bored waiting for his car too, I supposed.

You see. It wasn't my car but it was such a relief and satisfaction seeing and feeling it working perfectly right. Everything was okay except for it rained so heavily the whole day. What was the car wash for again? The big question was left hanging (not a mystery, however) as Jo drove us back to college where our comforting beds waited for us.

It was only after Asar but who minds. Kan hujan.. Maka, Selamat Malam, dunia.. Huahuahua...
(masih ingat Si Berkemeja Putih lengan panjang dengan tali lehernya. I'd say he's tall, dark and handsome. Huhu..)

Kasih Mak Sayang Mama..

Mama: Hello, ma. Assalamualaikum. Buat apa? Da breakfast? Makan apa?
Mak: Waalaikumussalam. Mak sihat, mak? Buat apa tu, mak? Ayah sihat, mak?

Mama: Bapak sihat, ma? Mama masak apa arini? Uishh.. Sedap tu.
Mak: Masak apa mak arini? Sedapnya, mak. Ni yang adik nak pegi Melaka ni. Rindu nak makan mak masak.

Mama: Saja angah call. Baru habis kelas ni. Bapak mana, ma? Senyap je rumah. Kat wakaf ke?
Mak: Da lama adik tak telefon mak. Minta maaf, mak. Ayah tak ada ke, mak? Mesyuarat masjid ye?

Mama: Ma, I got tests la next week. Then, I'll be on leave for a week. Belum beli tiket bas lagi tapi nak balik.
Mak: Mak, adik periksa minggu depan. Mak doakan adik ye. Mintak ayah doakan adik juga.

Mama: Mama wish angah luck ya. Bagitau la kat bapak angah nak test. Mintak bapak doakan.
Nanti angah Aminkan dari Shah Alam. Hehehe..
Mak: Mak tolong buat solat hajat untuk adik ya. Terima kasih, mak. Ya, mak. Adik buat juga kat sini.

Mama: Okeylah, ma. I got to go. Da lama kita sembang ni. Sorry..

Mak: Mak, nanti adik telefon lagi ya. Mak jaga diri ya.

Mama: Mama kirim salam kat bapak and all ya. Take care. Peluk cium untuk semua. Bye.
Mak: Mak kirim salam kat ayah ya. Mak jaga diri. Assalamualaikum.

Perbualan rutinku dengan Mama dan Mak.
Dua insan, satu pangkat.
Kasihku pada mereka tak dapat aku bedakan.
Sama.. Bertakhta.. Kekal.. Abadi.. Selamanya..
(p/s: Rindu nak kucup tangan Mak, miss teasing Mama around.. =P )

Jabat Tahniah

That Sunday morning started like any other Sundays. Except for that Sunday, we had a plan. No one has any idea at all just how relieving it is for me, personally, to actually have something to do on a Sunday. So i took my shower, dressed myself in a pair of black jeans and a black t-shirt i just bought the day before. I put on my white Moove shoes and off we went.

It was already 11.45am when we ordered our meals at Syed's. Breakfast? Mm.. Brunch i would say. Neither breakfast for it was almost noon, nor lunch for it was light. I mean, mine was. I had a kaya toast and cup of hot Milo. So there were the five of us, filling our empty stomachs. Alhamdulillah..

Soon, we left for PAS. Three for shopping n two to the bowling alley. JoAra registered at the counter after meeting her friends. This was the beauty of it. Her buddies were her opponents. How cool! We got to her lane and she started warming up. There i was sitting with her, looking around. Nice views everywhere. Haha.. My girlfriends know exactly what that means. Then, the game began. Later, it ended with JoAra as the champion. Congrats, girl. ^_^

We stayed to watch the guys play. I can't recall at which lane i was sitting and watching. But it was her friend bowling. She was somewhere else, watching someone else. It was not long until the first game finished. And this was where and when it happened. He came to me. So there i was offering my right hand, to shake his, to say congrats. JABAT TAHNIAH. But he wanted to set. "Wrong channel," I thought. Without a second thought, this time round I wanted to set. But he wanted to shake my hand. "Boling bila menang kita set. Tak salam." That was what he said if i'm not mistaken. Ya Allah. And where was JoAra?.. "Malunya I bukan kepalang!!!" (p/s: I'm covering my face wit the palm of my left hand as i'm typing now. Oh my God..)

Finally, it was a set. "Menanglah lagi the next game, then boleh set lagi." That's what i said, to cover it up. Come to think about it again, maybe it didn't matter at the first place. Hahaha.. Funny.. JoAra laughed like really laughing when I told her about it.. KIhkihkih..^_- What la?...

The day ended late near Maghrib after we had our meals at Pak Li. Mee mamak and white coffee ice..
"Nice meeting you, Hakim."
Owh.. I did mentioned his name before, didn't I?.. huahaha..

Orang Baru Tumpang Lalu

Bismillah..

Kudapanku...
Pena jejari menitik bicara,
Ke depan ke belakang menyusun kata.
Lalu, pedulikan..
Ini isi hatiku.
Acuanku, ramuanku, air tanganku, mengikut seleraku.
Enak di tekak jiwaku, kenyang di perut ragaku.

Jika begitu jua buatmu, jemputlah, silalah.
Jika tidak, jamahlah walau hanya sesuap..

Orang baru tumpang lalu...