!!!!!!!

Some people make jokes on serious issues that I rather not think about. Not that I am avoiding, I am just not ready. A few times I have misunderstood, I hope not to again. Just do not blame me when I think you are joking the next time you mean what you say.

Adoi..


Wallahualam.

4 Nights In A Row

July 25th
I had a dream. It was weird and almost impossible, too good to be true.. Trust me, i woke up in shock myself.

July 26th
I had a dream, the same one, but a shorter version. Still, it was clear. This time, i did not wake up in shock, but with wonders. Why? How come?

July 27th
I received a call. After midnight, very, very early in the morning. We talked. Dia wanted to ask something but ended up not. God knows what. I told myself, "Kebetulan ni.. Once in a while, memang dia akan call." So, okay then. No need to think deeper.

July 28th
We talked on the phone again. Twice, which makes three times in 2 nights. Still, dia did not ask what dia wanted to. Dia said, "Takde pape lah.." So, I went like, "Okay" and I laughed.


I'm like 80% sure there is nothing pun tapi tetap rasa nak tulis. Bila tengah tak buat apa-apa, confirm terfikir jugak. Apakah? Adoi..

My point is too simple actually. I dreamt of a same person who later called.
The end.


Wallahualam.

SHE

She's not stupid, she knows
She's not dumb, she senses
She's no fool, she realizes

It's not that she's deaf, she listens
It's not that she doesn't speak, she tells
It's not that she ignores, she tries

She's not mean,
It's not that she's heartless,
Maybe she just lost hers...

It came as i was about to close my eyes
Wallahualam..

Yang Tak Bertajuk..

Happiness itu bahagia
Bahagia itu gembira
Gembira itu senang hati
Senang hati itu tak mestinya joli

Mendapat maka puas
Puas rasa dia hebat
Hebat jangan sampai buas
Air mata berjurai lebat

Awas.


Beteh memandu hidup. Dunia ini kejam. Buat baik kena, laku jahat pun kena.
Jadi, bagaimanakah? Bantai aje ke? Main tibai je?
Wallahualam...

-Still-

Masih belum pernah.

Masih belum lagi
Masih belum hendak berhenti
Masih belum dapat
Masih belum penat.

Sering bermimpi
Sering berangan
Sering terjaga
Sering juga terlena.

Dan masa semakin suntuk
Dan matlamat belum tercapai
Semakin sempit ruang
Semakin dihimpit detik.

Wallahualam.

dia

Paras dia ketat
Senyum dia kelat
Benak dia sarat
Hati dia berat
Serba karat

Dia tatap tapi dia tak berhujah
Dia senyum seolah beralah
Biar mereka membantah
"Aku sedia tahu, aku sudah faham, aku pernah singgah di situ, aku memang tahu.."

Dia ada untuk kalian, selalu
Adakah kalian untuk dia?

Mendahulukan yang lain, tegar menolak kalbunya ke tepi
Ditinggalkan, pilihan sendiri

Mahu dia lari, mahu dia mementingkan diri
Tak ingin ambil peduli
Terus tuju tiada kanan dan kiri
Tapi kaedah itu bisa bunuh jiwanya, bisa padam identitinya, bisa kapankan tubuhnya, bisa melenyapkan dia dari dia.

Mesti macam mana? Macam-macam?
Aduh. Jatuh tersungkur mengucup muka bumi.
Parah-luka dalaman.

Kata yang terlintas
Laku apa yang dihajat
Dahulukan NIAT
Berpimpinkan nawaitu.

"Setiap orang memilih lorongnya sendiri. Jadi, bila hasilnya negatif, pandanglah cermin dan tudinglah jari ke arahnya. Akan ditemukan puncanya"

Wallahualam..

Chocolate Mud

Allah selamatkan kamu
Allah selamatkan kamu
Allah selamatkan Puan Rohani Hasan
Allah selamatkan kamu..

Selamat Ulangtahun ke-53, Mama.
Selamat panjang umur dan murah rezeki.
May you be blessed and happy always..

With all love, hugs and kisses..
Muahs, xoxo..

Wallahualam...