huh..??!!!!!!!!!

I QUIT!!!


charged me guilty, i am sorry.
i really am..


tak nak menyakiti dan disakiti..
Wallahualam..

an invitation

As much as she wants to go, she did not. Was she afraid? I'm afraid so. Maybe yes, maybe not. The only thing for sure was she followed her heart. Like she always does.

"Why are you so afraid to come?"
"I don't know."

"Are you afraid?"
"I don't know. Why would I be?"

"You may come if you want to. It's okay."

It's not that she didn't want to. One half of her wanted to, very much. But the other half somehow stopped her. "It's not you, it's the heart."

What's on her mind is simple but pure.
-take me there as someone, not just anyone. and i shall go-



Wallahualam..

after sometime..

life is funny in every single way
one moment of laughter
one day of tears

turn to right one sees his friend
turn to left one discovers a foe
blink his eyes once the one trusted is gone
blink his eyes twice to know he is all alone

what he wants most is what he will not possess
funny life he lives but reality it is

as much as i want to write more,
this ends here.


Wallahualam..

done

It started.. yay!


It progressed.. nice~~


It ended.. cool..



DONE. the simplest way i can describe it.

wallahualam...

!!!!!!!

Some people make jokes on serious issues that I rather not think about. Not that I am avoiding, I am just not ready. A few times I have misunderstood, I hope not to again. Just do not blame me when I think you are joking the next time you mean what you say.

Adoi..


Wallahualam.

4 Nights In A Row

July 25th
I had a dream. It was weird and almost impossible, too good to be true.. Trust me, i woke up in shock myself.

July 26th
I had a dream, the same one, but a shorter version. Still, it was clear. This time, i did not wake up in shock, but with wonders. Why? How come?

July 27th
I received a call. After midnight, very, very early in the morning. We talked. Dia wanted to ask something but ended up not. God knows what. I told myself, "Kebetulan ni.. Once in a while, memang dia akan call." So, okay then. No need to think deeper.

July 28th
We talked on the phone again. Twice, which makes three times in 2 nights. Still, dia did not ask what dia wanted to. Dia said, "Takde pape lah.." So, I went like, "Okay" and I laughed.


I'm like 80% sure there is nothing pun tapi tetap rasa nak tulis. Bila tengah tak buat apa-apa, confirm terfikir jugak. Apakah? Adoi..

My point is too simple actually. I dreamt of a same person who later called.
The end.


Wallahualam.

SHE

She's not stupid, she knows
She's not dumb, she senses
She's no fool, she realizes

It's not that she's deaf, she listens
It's not that she doesn't speak, she tells
It's not that she ignores, she tries

She's not mean,
It's not that she's heartless,
Maybe she just lost hers...

It came as i was about to close my eyes
Wallahualam..